pen-edthoughts

2009-07-29T19:26:00.000+08:00

AH WHERE'S TRUST. I NEED THAT.

IT BETTER NOT BE REAL IF NOT YOU.ARE.DEAD.

2009-07-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

Y'see, shallow humans, shallow thinking. (k the humans don't make sense.) Hais why am I TALKING AND HELPING a idiotttttt/flirt. Such an insult to me. -.- K enough of that.

Prelim 2's over and it seems like the holidays already! Damn O's. To hell with it hahaha.

Oh and I sometimes wonder whether will I really get beaten to death by my mum. Some day, I think.

2009-07-23T23:15:00.001+08:00

LOL why are humans so shallowwwww.

2009-07-21T22:05:00.000+08:00

Why is it always you.

Think about my feelings, will you.

2009-07-10T22:57:00.001+08:00

Mum's always finding fault in me.

WHAT EXACTLY IS WRONG WITH ME.

2009-07-09T22:46:00.003+08:00

I'm sad.

Very.

Prelim 2

2009-07-07T23:06:00.008+08:00

Favourite, always. (and many more haha)

'You're always extinguishing my thoughts towards you. What ever happened to the promise. Consigned to oblivion?'

Damn depressed at my weight. SUPER SCARYYYY. You can never imagine how such a 'skinny' looking girl can be __kg.

Was feeling super cocky today. Major mood swings recently too. Danger porcupine hahaha. K don't make sense. Felt super pissed and insulted after being insulted by someone who is unaware that he/she has already insulted me. Bad.

Prelim 2's next tuesday and I have no time for revision. What kind of situation am I in, somebody explain to me.

Bye.

O's

2009-07-03T22:44:00.004+08:00

I'm going to do it, for all of you. Really.
Credits to ALL OF YOU. (Haha you can come and ask me whether isit you or not but dont be hurt if I say no ;x) including times spent on me, won't be wasted, I promise.

<3 (:

It takes so much courage to do it.

2009-06-29T21:18:00.005+08:00

Just Stand Up - Beyoncé, Carrie Underwood, Rihanna, Mariah Carey, Ciara, Melissa Etheridge, Mary J Blige, LeAnn Rimes, Leona Lewis, Keyshia Cole, Ashanti, Sheryl Crow, Natasha Bedingfield, Fergie, Miley Cyrus

Beyonce: The heart is stronger than you think
It's like it can go through anything
And even when you think it can't it finds a way to still push on, though
Carrie: Sometimes you want to run away
Ain't got the patience for the pain
And if you don't believe it look into your heart the beat goes on

Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that
Things get better
Through whatever
If you fall, dust it off, don't let up
Sheryl: Don't you know you can go be your own miracle
Beyonce: You need to know

CHORUS
Sheryl: If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up
Sheryl/Beyonce: Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what
Don't give up
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie: It's like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face
Leona: Just because you go through it
Fergie: Don't mean it got to take control, no
Leona: You ain't gotta find no hiding place
Keyshia: Because the heart can beat the hate
Leona: Don't wanna let your mind keep playin' you
Keyshia: And sayin' you can't go on

Rihanna: I'm tellin' you that
Miley: Things get better
Through whatever
Rihanna: If you fall
Miley: Dust if off, don't let up
LeAnn: Don't you know
Natasha: You can go
LeAnn: Be your own
Natasha: Miracle
Carrie: You need to know

Ensemble: CHORUS
If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
Melissa: adlibs
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up
Melissa: adlibs
Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what
Don't give up
Melissa: adlibs
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!
IF WE ALL, JUST STAND UP!
Mary: You don't gotta be a prisoner in your mind
Ciara: If you fall, dust it off
Mary: You can live your life
Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah
Mary: Let your heart be your guide
Rihanna/Carrie: Yeah yeah yeah
Mariah: And you will know that you're good if you trust in the good
Ashanti: Everything will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart
Mary: And it will get better
Mariah: Through whatever

Ensemble: CHORUS
If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up
Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what
Don't give up
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!
If the mind keeps thinking you've had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don't give up
Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what
Don't give up
THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Fergie: You got it in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
You got in now, find it within now
You got in you, find it within
Find it within you, find it within

Everyone: THROUGH IT ALL, JUST STAND UP!

Get me out of this.

2009-06-29T17:36:00.002+08:00

I'm lost.

Afraid, confused, sad.

I feel like crying.

Yay :D

2009-06-27T23:42:00.004+08:00

Hahaha I'm soooo happy nowzxzxzx. Satisfied! I think those cute-sies who went out today will understand :D:D:D! Totally broke, but worth it! HAHAHAAAAA. K shut up.

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School's reopening soon and my homework is not even 1/4 done yet. Patheticcccc. I hate chinese compo, difficult much. Only one and a half english compre, one english ncelz, and one chinese zong he tian kong. Doomsday man.

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If only my family can have a day of peace. Even just for A DAY, is it THAT difficult? My life. "Deal with it."

2009-06-26T20:13:00.006+08:00

SERIOUSLY, WHAT IS THIS WORLD BECOMING INTO.

After dinner.. (I'll translate it into english)

Mum: Someone sweep the floor, I'll wash the dishes.

Sis: -Points at me-

Of course my face started to turn sulky, duh. NOT because I'm asked to sweep the floor, but it's the part whereby my sis POINTED AT ME. Just who is she to POINT AT ME AND ASK ME TO SWEEP THE FLOOR WHEN SHE DON'T HELP OUT MUCH AT HOME. (OR MAYBE NOTHING.) Fuck?

Me: -Raises my voice- OF COURSE LA, every time also I sweep WHAT.

So my mum paiseh, and asked my sis to sweep.

Sis: -shows her fucked up face and groaned.-

After sweeping..

I was standing in front of the tv, watching channel 8. SHE, with the fucked up face, sat on the sofa and screamed at me.

Sis: GO AWAY LA, DON'T STAND IN FRONT OF THE TV.

OHHHH, SO NOW SHE FEELS WEI QU ABOUT SWEEPING THE FLOOR AND STARTS TO SCREAM AT ME.

Me: -Sits back in front of the comp- (talks in english) WHO ARE YOU TO SCREAM AT ME RIGHT NOW.

Sis: -keeps quiet and continue giving me the fucked up face-

PLEASE, IF SHE'S NOT MY SISTER I'LL MAKE SURE I THROW HER OUT OF THE WINDOW.

(Btw I have no intention of criticising ANY younger siblings, so please do not come and scream at me saying I'm biased.)

2009-06-25T23:24:00.006+08:00

Maybe I should not even try to persuade in the first place. I feel like I'm such an extra. OR isit that I'm too serious that you feel that it's so fake. What is it? I treat what you have said seriously, not a joke.

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K maybe I should cool down. Anger is taking over me. Chem tmrw, super boring. -.-

4H life.

HUH?!?!?!?!

2009-06-24T17:02:00.002+08:00

People, I admit i LOVE betsy teo and tiffany lee,

BUT,

I AM NOT A BISEXUALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. LIKE HOLY MOLY.

Canon IXUS 100 IS!

2009-06-23T16:47:00.002+08:00

CHIO, NO? (ESPECIALLY THE RED & GOLD ONE HAHAHA!)

2009-06-21T22:19:00.001+08:00

URFGH GIVE ME A BREAK.

IRRITATING.

2009-06-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

Excited about tmrw hahaha :D Auntie should be soooo touched. Whoohoo. Hui Ru should be feeling very excited too! Ya I know you miss me haaaaaaa.

ok seeya

2009-06-16T22:09:00.002+08:00

I think I'm going to spill out anytime. Nooooooo. Must.resist.
BUT it's so terribleeeeeee keeping it to myself. Urghhhhhhh.

Celebrated Dean's and Germaine's birthday in school today since Dean couldn't celebrate it outside. (Roar ass) Am so glad that Ger liked the present! :D Happy kids hahaha.

Seeyouzxzx

2009-06-12T22:47:00.002+08:00

I feel like going to the seaside and scream my lungs out, and throw things around.

I guess none took my words seriously. I'm not mean, just fucking mean, that's all. From the day I said I'm not going to be nice anymore, I meant it. It feels so tired trying to be nice ALL the time just like before. So sickening.

Don't like? Fuck off then.

2009-06-11T21:48:00.002+08:00

How scary one can be,
How realistic one can be,
How horrible one can be,
How fast one can change,
How inhuman one can be,
How however-bad one can be,

Just that few words, made me realised that there's still a little wonderfulness in some people. Very touched, really.

Peeeeeeks

2009-06-05T21:56:00.005+08:00

MAY23 :D (Some onlyyyy)

2009-06-02T16:35:00.006+08:00

- you do not have to spout vulgarities at me because I did not want you to

- I was never mad from the start, I'm just typing out how I feel, that's all.

- I don't think I would want to shut up, because it's my choice whether to shut up or not.

- you want to prove, prove all you want, but you don't have to wait for ETERNITY, because I don't think you have such a long life.

- SO what if I'm nothing in your life? Like SO WHAT? Trying to imply what? For WHAT I have? Omg I don't NEED to be SOMETHING in your life. Save it for someone else.

- I don't need you to PITY me, because I am very happy with the life I have now and the way I am now.

- You already said its MY judgement, so why get so cocky and argue over it?

- Oh, btw, I don't need your luck. Because it's a bad luck for me to have your luck. Thanks anw.

- Lastly, don't contradict yourself that you hate nerds by saying that they should be forced to extinction. Because you are one yourself. Don't understand? Check the dictionary, nerd.

Oh ya, I'm not replying to yours, I'm replying to SHERILYNN'S one, so I think you don't have to worry.

LOUSY NUMBER 'ONE'. HA-HA-HA.

2009-05-30T00:11:00.004+08:00

People look at 'O' level results, boyyyy. Don't be naive please. Simply look at the kind of attitude you have, some fucking haolian ass? OHHH, I forgot you don't have the word 'HUMBLE' in your FUCKING CLEVER BRAINNNN. Such a sad caseeee. Sorry but I'm not jealous about being SO TOP IN CLASS AT ALLLLL.

10years down the road, I'll definitely make you feel fucking inferior to me, and I'll walk pass you with wind. (;

You might just say, "Ha, DREAM ON, STUPID."

Then I'll tell you, "Ha, FUCK OFF, you lonesome. You're owned, totally. Stop living in your own world, you fucking lousy character with no true friends at all."

Just watch out, you fucking NERD spectacle boy.

W910i

2009-05-27T23:15:00.002+08:00

(Venessa's, Mine, Edgar's, Sherilynn's.)
:D!

Get over it, and move on.

2009-05-25T20:24:00.003+08:00

I'm so glad that I have such beautiful friends around me. I feel so blessed, really. Thanks for the sharing of thoughts and somehow it made me realised a lot of things. Life is unfair, learn to deal with it. Think positive.

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Even if it's bad results, so? I'll remember how she humiliated me in front of the whole class. A's in that fucking cheapskate couple faces. Especially the cheapskate wife. Just wait for the day whereby you'll have to call me boss (;

2009-05-24T22:59:00.002+08:00

A lovely day spent ytd. Thank you lovelies :D

Pictures up some other day.

p.s: I want a DSLR D:

Long overdue pictures and recent pictures! :D

2009-05-15T21:41:00.082+08:00

Firstly, Happy Birthday to

Ms Chum, (Should be 6th May)
Rachel, (10th May)
Bernice (15th May)
Ms Leow, (16th May)
Zames, (17th May)

and all the other May babies! :D Not forgetting all those who wished me Happy Birthday! THANK YOU! :D

Tons of pictures! Enjoy!

SCIENCE FRONTIER (7th March)
Fun day!

Nano technology

Using a magnetic stirrer to stir the mixture. DANG COOL PLEASE.

After 'washing' it with water

Put a magnet under it, and TADA! See the spikes formed? :D

Using iodine.. I forgot what's the name LOL. Anw, this is to find fingerprints :D

My fingerprint xD

Some test, I forgot what was it LOL.

DNA test, see the DNA strands? ;D

Hand-made rocket!

Take off!

Playing around with mutton heart

Mutton satay!

:D

Group photo! (I pity the guy cause he was the only guy in our group haha)

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Steamboat at Jun Yong's house! (21st March)

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9km bridge walk! (27th March)

I dragged Tai Fung and Sherilynn along but we only managed to walk to Henderson Waves. Lmao.

Starting point, we had to climb 24-storeys worth of stairs. You totally got no idea how tiring that was!

In the middle of our walk

Reaching the top!

top :D

Cable car from a telescope!

I like this peekyyy

Henderson Waves

Candid :D

I was shocked to see such a fucking big spider -.-

After our walk, we took a bus down to IKEA for some snacks and drinks :D

-Stares-

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Study session @ Changi Airport (10th April)

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14/5! :D
Had our dinner at Pepper lunch!

Waiting for our food

So we took the time to pose for a picture! :D

Lausie's beef steak

Rachel's beef pepper rice

Me and sherilynn had salmon pepper rice!

CANDID PLEASE.

Happy girls

Smiley :D

Me likey this

Another candid one!

Getting Leow's celebration cupcakes

1!

2!

3!

4!

Told you we were happy girls LOL

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Leow's early birthday celebration! (15th May)

Arranging the cupcakes

H!

Ms Leow opens the door..

and TADA!

After blowing the candles

Ms Chum joined us cause she just finished her Bio class with 4I

Group photo!

Shut up, Mother's Day.

2009-05-10T22:28:00.004+08:00

I never liked Mother's Day, and I'm so not wishing her. Good to say, I survived this day. How awesome. Sad to say, I don't have any sense of guiltiness, because I've reached the point whereby I do not have to feel guilty towards my mum anymore.

Cheers, (:

2009-05-08T23:16:00.002+08:00

I sense it coming.

and I realised I it doesn't matter anymore.

PITY? MY FOOT.

2009-04-27T21:26:00.000+08:00

URGH MS LEOW SUCKKKK.

RUBBISH.

2009-04-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

It'll always be inside us (:

<3

2009-04-04T20:50:00.001+08:00

I need to put down all my troubles.

Where's my old self.

2009-03-29T21:54:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUN YONG!

Hoped you liked the celebration that day, the gift, and of course, us! HAHA ok lame. Be happy always, ok? ;D

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-Sighs-, I miss Chicken Nugget. I've so many things to say to you. Only talking to you, I can then express my feelings. ): Good luck for your SYF!

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It's always me that's trying to pretend so hard. I'm not going to be nice just like I did in the past anymore. I'm not saying I expect anything in return, but at least, don't take me for granted. I might have done something wrong to anyone of you out there, but hey, if you know me well enough you know I'm a person who do feels sorry after I know I've done something wrong BUT I don't show it. Nvm if you don't get it means you don't know me lollll.

"I don't know when will my patience run out." Everyone has a limit. Mine has reached. It's time that I stop being nice.

Paranoiddddd.

2009-03-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

What is wrong with the world nowadays. Or is it just me. Fuckin' irritated by EVERYTHING.

Rant somewhere else. Bye.

It's not the usual stuff anymore.

2009-03-23T22:18:00.001+08:00

尝试掩饰自己的伤心的一面，已不再是一件容易的事。
我好累，真的好累。

2009-03-17T23:41:00.000+08:00

HOW. ):

Wow, I'm such a GOOD student!

2009-03-12T22:18:00.004+08:00

Maths lousy = EVERYTIME late submission of homework

Maths lousy = ALWAYS copy homework

Maths lousy = ALL of the work are INCOMPLETE.

(Just note the words that he used)
Oh please, fuck off. I'm not who you think I am. Why didn't I bother to explain? I don't scream at people in class just to say, "HEY, YOU MALIGNED ME." No I don't. I blogged it out simply because I needed somewhere to vent my upsets, and also, I don't see how arguing with you will make my conscience clear. FOR WHAT? Obviously you will still be the ultimate winner. Piece of shit.

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Seems like having remedials during the March holidays are worse than having lessons on normal school days. More homework than usual. Damn this is bad.

I think I should stop complaining. I'm sec4 already.

Bye.

好想再弹一遍，让回忆有所感慨。

Post dedicated to SHERILYNN.

2009-03-10T22:06:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO LITTLE MISS SHERILYNN!
(RAINBOW LEHHHHH.)

AM I THE LAST ONE? :D Special enough or not, last one leh hahahha :D BE HONOURED, YOU GIRL. Should I call this, your lame 16th birthday? Because you're so lame, that you make me feel like smacking you. (Doesn't make sense but who cares LOL) Hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Anw you finally feel that you looked like an ANGMOH today. Good thing, as you grow older = look more like an ANGMOH. Ok so upon turning 16 years old, you should be A LITTLE not-so-lame, A LITLE prettier, A LITTLE cuter, (omg it makes me feel so sinful. I'm only going to write this ONCE. LMAO) and of course, A LITTLE better in everything that you do! :D

(Yeah sounds mean but hey, you know I don't REALLY mean it right? ;DDDD)

A little too not over you.

2009-03-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

A Little Too Not Over You - David Archuleta

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It is for the best
I know it is
But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Memories suppose to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on
But I see you

Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back
Yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, ohhh.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you

Not over you, ooh.

Fear.

2009-03-06T18:14:00.001+08:00

I've never felt this scared before.

你真的好可怕。

Over.

2009-03-05T22:51:00.005+08:00

CT1's over, guess I got the worst for my languages. Worst in my life until now. Heck what's happening.

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So many things to say, but yet, like what people always say, 一言难尽. How cute can this be.

I'm so sick of it.

为了什么，名利？还是面子？从你身上所看到的，朋友，竟然是排名第二。
Is it just my own imagination.

You're in my head like a song on the radio.

2009-02-27T23:03:00.003+08:00

Kinda moody nowadays. Not p-m-s, it's m-s, hahaha.

I should not even try to remember, not at all.

Cottage Waffle Place!

2009-02-23T21:07:00.012+08:00

Day out with the girls last Saturday. Fondue again!

Common test's coming this Thursday, cute. Must.pass.maths. T.T

Who will even know how much that means to me.
Who will even know how I feel deep down.

I see no light shining through the dark grey clouds.

2009-02-09T21:50:00.005+08:00

"Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face and the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient, waiting
We live and we learn ..."

I feel so hopeless. Or maybe I just don't know how to cope, that's all.

On the verge of breaking down.

2009-02-06T22:20:00.004+08:00

"I have a dream, a song to sing~..."

- Two weeks more to common test, scary.
- Have no mood for homework. (Meh this sentence is boring.)
- Me wants to go out. ):

Random way of blogging today. Ok bye.

我一直在期盼，期盼你有一天会意识到，我一直都在。

2009-02-05T21:17:00.002+08:00

AMaths is such a goner. Blame it on myself for not having enough practice. Feeling extra sleepy this whole week but there's nothing I can do about it. -sighs- Oh as I was typing this, mum act cute-d (dumb word) to the hamster -.- Eew.

I forgot what I wanted to type. Zz

K seeyou

0%.

Still the same

2009-02-02T21:42:00.005+08:00

"I curbed my anger, I curbed myself from standing up. I clutched the pen hard in my hand, there was nothing I could do but to bear with it." So much for my trust in him.

I don't see the point of explaining anymore. My conscience is clear, and I don't have to mind others' ostracism.

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It's the same old routine that repeats itself over and over again. Tests lining up, homework piling up. Am so glad that Ms J decided to give us a break this week, haha. Leow's getting more annoying than ever. It's a fact that will always remain the same.

Felt so bad about letting Sophie wait for me and didn't go for cca in the end. Sorry ):

Bye

Andersen's!

2009-01-31T23:18:00.014+08:00

Pictures for today:

GLAM OR NOTTTT.

Had Rachel's shades on me. LOVE IT!

Sherilynn had that natural smile! :DDDD WHOO.

We tried taking SMILEY, RETARD, AND ACT CUTE photos but failed during the first try, kept laughing LOL.

Succeeded on the second try! :D (Fringe's so screwed, makes me look bald)

Uber fun with the girls today. Of course TF's pictures are not here. Don't ask why, go to her blog please tyvm. Had Andersen's for tea time and laughed like.. SO UNGLAM. No la it was actually TF who was the unglam one, HAHA. More of these next time ya!

Ok seeya geeks! :D

2009-01-30T22:13:00.002+08:00

Had some freaking major mood swing. Heckkkkk.

Want to know? Haha if you're clever enough to. (;

CNY

2009-01-27T20:43:00.004+08:00

(taken on New Year's eve)

Damn.tired.and.sleepy.now. BUT, love the part when I get to collect angbaos :D Lots of tests lining up when school starts tmrw. Such a sad life ):

Your heart's not with us. What's the point of giving you such an authority.

100th post

2009-01-24T20:55:00.005+08:00

Nothing special about this 100th post actually. Still, not forgetting to mention, I'm not in the mood for studying.

Felt bad about asking Sherilynn out today. Sorry ): And I've got this sudden obsession for ribbons o.o Cute, I know.

Ending the post with a picture of Sze Rui and me taken at Frh concert. Rest of the pictures will be up soon. Be patient, won't you?

Shut up, I know you're looking at my eye bags. They're scary, I know.

Byeeee

2009-01-20T22:45:00.005+08:00

Sickening, really.

If everything is just laziness to you, then I can be considered as nothing. I came with her, she's not counted late but I am? Because? Because I'm not being recognised? I don't understand, seriously. I didn't talk back, because I respect you, and I know I'm wrong in the first place. I just hate being unfair, that's all.

And to think that this is already very sickening, you just made it even worse.

I'm just selfish, whatever.

2009-01-18T14:44:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA CAME AROSS THIS ON A BLOG.

"nnabrr on hhiiss hhp ffers a bberriie bberiie ll0nqq ttyme llerhhs !"

ROFL. I read that whole sentence for two times before I acually understood what's NNABRR. -laughslikemad- No offence to those TWITS but seriously, I HATE TWITSSSS.

Goshhhh

2009-01-18T12:53:00.002+08:00

1) Finish English newspaper article reflection
2) Revise Chemistry
3) Outline of one forgot-what-title SS essay.

Was typing halfway on my English when I just remembered that.. I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT SS. W-T-F. How can I!!! The whole class promised Ms J to hand in on Monday because we can't hand in a self-proclaimed good job on Firday. Lollll. Ok sounds surprising for me to actually list out the stuffs I need to do. Decided to be guai today. Hahaha!

My flu's not getting any better. Butbut, I've got no cough, y'knowy'know. Tf, I'm stronggggg. ;D

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Went out with the girls (Rachel, Sherilynn and her mum, Tiffany and me!) ytd evening. I wasn't supposed to buy anything but in the end.. I STILL BOUGHT SOMETHING -.- Urfgh whatever happened to saving money. Sherilynn's mum treated us to dinner, so nice of her y'knowwww! Thankyou! :D

Seeyouzxzx

SLEEPY.

2009-01-16T22:58:00.007+08:00

Woke up this morning and found my dark eye rings and big eye bags so.. HORRIBLE. -screamsatmyself- Can't stand it anymore. Super.freaking.sleepy. Walking zombie next, I guess.

edited\ Leow's pressing us for notice board decoration. So fuck.

Bye.

No one knew and no one saw what was within my eyes.
I do not want myself to be deemed, weak.
"Stabs."

SICK.

2009-01-14T21:05:00.006+08:00

Sick of my own sickness right now,

SICK OF CO,

SICK OF EVERYTHING.

Trying not to be angry but is this what people always say, 得寸进尺? Hello, I am not like MOST of you who can multi task, ok. Till now I still can't accept the fact that we're already having morning practices AND one whole week of CO this week when it's just the second proper week of school. You might say, "Other people are not complaining, so why should you?" I am not complaining, just voicing out my opinions, HOR.

This whole week has been such a sucky week for me. Feeling so tired in class and trying to keep myself awake, seems that I have not failed ever since the school has reopened. Leow's just making me hate her more than ever. Mr Koh is trying to help me, I know, I.will.TRY. Who knows maybe the next moment I might be out of the class already.

I feel the stress coming. Bye.

2009-01-13T21:25:00.003+08:00

MDM Tai Fung,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Be honoured, it's pink. HAHA. Been so sick these few days that I think I CRAWLED (According to Mr Koh's cute word) to school. Must.not.fall.sick. If not.. ):

Gotta go sleep, BYE!

So inferior, always.

2009-01-11T16:08:00.003+08:00

STEAMBOAT LATER! HAHAHAAA. DAD'S FRIEND'S TREAT. COOL, I KNOW.

Whoohoo. Ok ignore me cause I'm A LITTLE high right now. (A LITTLE ONLY LA, OK.) Cheated a little in Bio. One category = one slide. Speaking about this, THERE'S SPA BIO TMRW! YAY, something in science that I can be happy about :D!

Chinese results tmrw ): Come to me, my first A in 'O' Levels.

HUHU BYEBYE! :D

2009-01-09T22:21:00.011+08:00

Dashing across the street and around the corner, I saw myself landing at a dead end. I thought, "Life has never been so hard."

A proper week of school ended and it almost got me spinning round and round. Must.adapt.soon. Enjoyed Mr Koh's lessons the most. Not as much stress compared to Ms Ng, more relaxing, and of course, hilarious. Comparing him to other teachers, he's still the top! :D Anw I think he's gonna scream at me for Amaths. Oh well.

I DO blame myself for getting very bad chem results, but just look at her attitude. How do you even expect me to judge her properly when she herself judges people by their cover. (Still cannot believe you actually said that when I thought you understood my expression. Fucking pissed.)

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'O' Level's Chinese results out on Monday. -Prays-

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Phone's still not back, -sighs- ):

Seeya.

2009-01-06T22:26:00.001+08:00

BIG THANK YOU TO SHERILYNN FOR ORDERING THE FRH ALBUMMMM. :D

Days of torture starts, tmrw.

2009-01-04T21:49:00.003+08:00

90th post.

Cannot imagine what will my life become from tmrw onwards. T.T

I got this sudden urge to learn Luo Zhi Xiang's dance. -laughs- Serious man! Any kind soul? D:

Bye

越来越爱飛輪海

2009-01-03T20:16:00.005+08:00

Had three hours of nap, still sleepy. D:! Sister, Mama and Papa's out. My dinner - BREAD ); FREAKING SAD.

Collected Frh's third album today and I'M HAPPY! :D HEHEHEHOHOHO. Hate Wu Chun pairing up with Calvin EVERYTIME T.T Can I have Aaron(Yan) instead :D K LAME.

Shall go listen to their songs now! Goodbye! :D

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Shameless, really.

First day of school.

2009-01-02T20:50:00.002+08:00

English - Ms Phua (No feeling, neutral.)
Higher Chinese - Ms Kim (HAHA. Whoo. Hate her pronounciation though ;x)
Maths - Mr Koh (You know. HAHAHAAAA)
Chemistry - Ms Leow (WTF THIS ONE, CAN GO AND DIE PLEASE.)
Biology - Ms Chum (UH, THIS ALSO Y'KNOW Y'KNOW ONE LA)
Geography - I don't knowwww
History/SS - Ms Joseph (Neutral? o.o)

Form - Ms Leow
Co-Form - Mdm Tan

UBER ANGRY ABOUT MS LEOW. She's still her same old self. Wlaus please people don't owe you $5647542425457353789731 mans. What kind of face man, especially in the morning. Please, don't treat 4H using the hard way. It's not going to work. "I don't have a choice, neither do you." TaiFung's right, Ms Leow phrased it like she's sooooo miserable to teach our class. W-o-w, resign then.

Ok I should stop complaining. It's my fate. -sighs-
& I keep forgetting what I want to blog. LOL

Byeeeee

2009

2009-01-01T12:55:00.003+08:00

It's the first day of 2009 so let me say something,

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE :D

Came home at 1+ ytd and slept at 4am. Reason for my sleepiness. Feel like going out today but I know mum's gonna scream at me for this cause I've been going out non-stop since last week. IT'S SO BORING STAYING AT HOME. Urfgh. Nvm I think I shall be a good girl and continue to do my homework. (Oops, I only did one English article reflection and one za ji.) No mood for homework, y'see.

New Year resolutions will be kept secret ;D

BYE :D

Thanks, <3

2008-12-30T22:04:00.007+08:00

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Snipped my hair today and I'm SO GLAD that my fringe isn't spoiled! Whoo. :D Sad thing is that my V shape's gone ): AND MY LONG HAIR TOOOOO. T.T Sherilynn didn't had the luck to get her flats, still.. good luck :D Btw I'm not posting the list anymore. Hahaha bye!

Bestest, in this life, in another life.

4 more days D:!

2008-12-29T23:33:00.004+08:00

To school reopen. -insertssupersadface-

Tf's super generous today, -wonders-. Gonna save up money and start 'working' towards to my stuffs. (Not homework la duh) So many devices that I want, but yet.. -bigbigsighs- Friggin' broke after the concert and I still have debts to clear! AH OMGzx.

Cannot imagine ____'s our form teacher AND chem teacher next year. (most probably?) RIDICULOUS. Just imagine her childish way of handling matters. Cannot.make.it. I don't care if people starts saying 'YOU'RE SO MEAN' or whatever lalala. Just.dislike.her.

Come back soon, phone ):

2008-12-29T23:22:00.002+08:00

DO NOT CONTACT THROUGH MY PHONE UNTIL MID JANUARY.

Even my sis's phone is gone. (Not missing, lol) ):

2008-12-28T23:30:00.002+08:00

Was busy today, not with homework, but instead, with something else (: I still do not have the mood for homework, what am I supposed to do. -sighs-

BYE

It's the next step, and it repeats itself all over again.
Still I cannot get it right.
and I never will.

Misses.

2008-12-26T23:13:00.002+08:00

This kind of friendship, I will never get it anywhere else, I swear. (Included those who were absent.)

<3

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-25T00:08:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL! :D

Christmas eve (:

2008-12-24T19:02:00.002+08:00

Seems that I'm more excited when it comes to Christmas compared to Chinese New Year. School's coming in 8 days time and I'm still so reluctant to do my work. Bad, so bad.

Bye.

原来我，没有想象中的那么坚强。
而我，又什么时候，才能够结束这样的生活。
I really pity my dad. I really do.

Wow, so fast.

2008-12-22T23:19:00.003+08:00

3 more days to Christmas, 9 more days to New Year, 10 more days to school reopen.

Fast holidays, isn't it. Cannot imagine the stress all of us will be having for next year's 'O' Levels. SYF = SHIT. Hope Xu says I'm not qualified. -happyface- (Not fake face, it's real.) Just to go through all this to get into SYF? No thanks man.

---

I still have tons of homework not done, which is equals to, dead.

Byebye.

抓不住的那种空虚，真的很差。

Frh's fantasy concert

2008-12-20T13:05:00.008+08:00

"Uptown girl, she's been living in her uptown world..."

Concert was simply amazing. Favourite one was the outfit with the fedora. Screamed like mad asses, &&, saw Quan Yi Feng and Eddie Lee. Cool. Only bad thing was fans in front just stood up like nobody's business and that ended up the whole of category 1 had to stand throughout the whole concert. (Duh that includes me and S.R) I'm also super lucky that the girl sitting beside SzeRui was alone, and she didn't mind changing seat with me. (Of course la, in front lehs, who don't want -.-) Pictures will be up when S.R sends them to me (:

THEY ROCK. :D

2008-12-17T13:29:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since I came.

Thanks to all who took care of me on 15/11 when I was _____. Uh I'm a bad _______, I know, hahaha. Don't worry, I'm seriously fine when I was playing in the arcade. ;x (K maybe not.)

Frh's concert is on Friday and I'm excitedddddd. Hope those freaking fans behave themselves. (Oopssss)

I don't know what's wrong with me but I'm having rashes all over me now. ):! Side effect of _____?

So tired, bye.

I saw, and promised myself, no more selfishness.
Because, it's impossible.

Huhu

2008-12-09T22:00:00.004+08:00

It's just another typical day. I'm almost broke, and that will end up having no money to shop for Christmas presents. -bigbigsighs- Should.stop.spending.money.

See you soon.

原来，我的存在，根本就不是问题。
因为，我在你们的心中，是那么的渺小，那么的微不足道。
I wish, I wish and I wish.

Hi, bye.

2008-12-08T14:25:00.007+08:00

Reached home at around 1+(am) ytd? Perfomance was screwed like don't know what, and Xu's face also black until like don't know what. edit\ BIG THANK YOU TO HUIRU AND SIEWYAN WHO BOUGHT MY TICKETS. LOVE YOU!

I guess I have to finish my homework before I can go to the chalet. Saddening. And oh, I've thought of some of my Christmas pressies! Haha I guess the list will be up soon? (;

This week's events have got me drained, so tired. Btw, today's weather is like.. BRRR.

是否重要，只有你自己最清楚。我不会再做任何的解释。
I will continue to smile, even stronger than before.

I'm back.

2008-12-05T23:11:00.009+08:00

I'm so tired. OBS was 90% sucky. Where's the chalet that Mr Raffi mentioned. -sighs- Nevertheless, the experience was good, cause it will a lifetime memory to us. (Sounds contradicting but who cares) Oh, if you happen to see me on the streets in the coming weeks, don't scream, because the mosquito bites on my hands and legs are scary. -shivers-

Bye.

Exhausted, saddened. Why.

OBS!

2008-11-30T23:10:00.002+08:00

Wahlau look at the time now and I'm still packing. Uhhhh, I seriously wonder why do I have so many things to pack while others don't seem to have so many things. My bags seem like they're going to explode anytime, LOL. &&, thinking that my phone only can tahan 3days.. it feels awful. D:!

Late bon voyage wish to those who've gone brunei and of course, Ryan who've gone to HK and ENJOY. -.- Tf's going to be damn bored, I know, LOL hahaaaa.

Kay gotta sleep now, goodbye humans, and hope I'll enjoy at obs D:

2008-11-29T12:14:00.002+08:00

I wonder if going to OBS was still a wrong choice.

---

It feels so upset having so many things bottled up inside me, yet not very willing to share. Maybe I'm just making a mountain out of a molehill. Oh well.

CO camp.

2008-11-25T21:10:00.005+08:00

Uh, super tired. Slept like 2 hours only, zz. Body aching all over, urfgh.

I guess I was too angry this afternoon and seems that so many people thought I was scolding each and every one of them, lol. No I wasn't, just.. ONE only. Curious, no? (Ok then I'll take it you're not.) I think after this all of them will hate me. Don't care don't bother.

I'm not looking forward to OBS anymore. Lost the interest. Seems that Xu lao shi forgotten about it too. Spells W-O-W. Anddddddd, what will happen to the five of us? HELL?!

---

Went kbox on Friday(?) and I realised I didn't bring enough money. Thanks to Wan Ching, I'm saved from washing dishes there. Thanks babe! <3

Is it that I'm not trying hard enough.

2008-11-22T13:32:00.011+08:00

I start to wonder why am I so different from my whole family. (I say different doesn't mean that I'm SELF-PRAISING, SHIT YOU.)

AND I HATE IT. HATE THEM, HATE EVERYTHING.

Seeing people saying/blogging : I LOVE MY FAMILY. They treat me well, blah blah.. Ya you think I'll be dreading like shiat to exchange parents. Of course, if I got the chance, WHY NOT? Worse, my mum gave birth to me, and I have to call her MUM. W-T-F. I wish she didn't give birth to me. Sad thing, I don't get to choose my mum, so I have to make do with her FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. EVEN MORE FUCK.

BUT, if you're trying to tell me, 'You'll change your mind someday.' Then let me tell you this, YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE THEM SO STOP FUCKINGLY TELL ME NOT TO HATE MY FAMILY. SHUTUP, FUCK OFF.

It'll never change. Not now, not in the future.

P.S: There's always a saying that goes, 'Be happy with what you have. There are a lot of people out there who are worse than you.' My answer for you is, I DON'T CARE. This is my life, not yours. You can say I'm selfish, self-centered, whatever you want, but this fact will never change.

Tick, tock.

2008-11-18T00:05:00.002+08:00

It feels so bad having no money with you. Persevere, rah. I think co test is gonna fail. Crap. T.T

2008-11-16T13:13:00.005+08:00

Life's still the same, but the atmosphere's different. Quiet, isn't it. (Aaron you get what I mean. (;)

我又领悟到了。
原来这，根本无法用时间来衡量。
而是，他在你心中，影响有多大，存在的意义有多少。

我已经在尝试，让你不会再胡思乱想。
但是，你又可否想过我的感受？
再也承受不了任何眼泪的眼眶，我。。。

Sony Ericsson X1!

2008-11-15T14:54:00.005+08:00

I WANT THIS, DAMN. D:
(Sherilynn, I bet this is better than Samsung BlackJack II, hohooo)

Meh I've been sleeping for 12hours and still not enough. T.T Was so afraid that I might not catch the last train after sending them off to aussie at the airport ytd. Miraculously I caught the second last train. (uh huh) Sorry to Sherilynn for the.. condense milk in the ice kachang ><

Holidays are ending like.. SO SOON and I still have not start on any homework yet. Gosh I'm so dead.

Byezx.

Bored, bored-er, bored-est.

2008-11-13T23:46:00.002+08:00

Uninteresting life of mine, boring. D:

Bon voyage to those heading to Australia tmrw and those who've headed there today! :D

Hot Shot

2008-11-12T16:05:00.003+08:00

WAHLAU HOT SHOT DE ENDING SO DIAO! T.T!

Lousy ending D:

Poc-poc-keh, heehaw, meh, oink & quack.

2008-11-11T21:39:00.003+08:00

Yeah, headed to Mind's Cafe today. Damn I think I'm starting to get addicted to that place already. I hereby declare that I WANT TO GO AGAIN. LOL. That place's really good la, you can just stay there to play and laugh for the whole of afternoon and nobody will stop you. Hahaha, fabulous!

HEHEHE OK BYE

It just feels like..

Photofunia!

2008-11-09T23:17:00.001+08:00

LOL SHERILYNN, PLEASE BE SUPER HONORED.

Money, friends, and family.

2008-11-09T16:15:00.005+08:00

Finally my mum taught me something that I think it's reasonable enough.

钱，永远是身外物。我们做人，都应该要向前看，而不是停留在原点，为了琐碎的事而计较。人们常说，生命是很短暂的，一点也没错。钱，也许能买到一切，但却买不到宝贵的亲情和友情。这两样东西，一旦失去了，就再也挽不回。有很多人为了钱，宁愿放弃一切，这又意味着什么？人类心中所存有的那种现实？也许是吧。在人家需要帮助时，无条件的帮忙，这才是真正靠得住的朋友。而那些要求回报的，说不定他们有一天会反咬你一口。

人为财死，鸟为食亡。岩石，总有一天会被水滴穿。

Because, the truth never lies.

Shoppinggggggg.

2008-11-09T00:02:00.005+08:00

It's been quite a while since I shopped around without stopping. Happy thing is that I've finally found a reasonable priced fedora. Bought it without hesitation, haha! My legs are tired now, seeya.

Wending on this deserted road, I'm still stranded here, trying to find my way out.

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Still can't get to sleep, though it's like 2.02am T.T Super boring please.
You're so fake, seriously.

2008-11-07T22:10:00.006+08:00

Chem SPA, crap.

I've got like less than 50% of my energy left now. Damn O levels, lol.

I'm on the verge of breaking down.
I've lost my direction.
It hurts, more than anything else .
告诉我, 我该怎么做.

2008-11-06T21:42:00.005+08:00

Heck, I screwed my SPA Bio. !@#$%^&*

GOOD LUCK TO ALL FOR CHEM SPA TMRW!

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I've learnt a lot from you guys, be it in any way.
The days we spent together, will be a lifelong memory to me.
I'll never forget, that we've been together.
Glad that we're fine now. Best friends now, and forever (:

2008-11-05T22:29:00.002+08:00

Chinese O level today was.. partly screwed I guess? I didn't have enough time to write bao zhang bao dao. Nvm, its over.

Quantum Of Solace was a little bit disappointing. Firstly, Daniel Craig is not as hot as Peirce Brosnan, that's for sure. Secondly, plot wasn't that good?

Anyway, GOOD LUCK TO 3H&3I's BIO SPA TMRW!

My life goes on, in search of my beau.
You're not the one, I'm sorry.

2008-11-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

Omg now I'm feeling nervous. Like finally. (a bit late to be nervous but ya who cares)

GOOD LUCK TO ALL!

So close, but so far away.

w-t-f.

2008-11-02T21:27:00.005+08:00

ANYTHING, BUT THAT SENTENCE. Mind you, it triggered me. (I don't always show my bad side because I may be deemed as small gas by other people.) In case anyone of you have forgotten,

"I don't show, doesn't mean that I don't sense anything. I don't say, doesn't mean that I'm not feeling anything. I can be nice, but when you're not, I will not be too.

Do not ever try to test me."

Take that seriously.

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Mum was crazy today in the morning. Zz, geng nian qi. Did practically nothing at home, besides doing ONE chemistry worksheet and chinese. Typical slacker.

Don't feel like going to school tmrw. Sianzx. Bye.

BBQ

2008-11-02T14:10:00.007+08:00

Lol, back from primary school's BBQ at 1am. Sorta screwed up at first, but thanks to auntie, she was sucha expert at setting up fires. All of us were so.. amazed(?) Hahaha, well, at least I've learnt how to set up fires faster and better next time. Kinda pathetic looking at the number of people went, only a pathetic number of 3 girls. I think next time will be a better one, hehs. Some of us actually forgot Christopher's birthday, so embarrassing. Belated happy birthday here!

Recently I'm so into super old songs, lol!

"I don't mind spending everyday,
Out on your corner in the pouring rain,
Look for the girl with the broken smile,
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile."

O-W-N-E-D.

2008-10-31T23:04:00.005+08:00

Omg i cannot believe that guys can be so ungentlemanly. Total own-age by two dumb asses, goodness gracious. Ok nvm, we're entertainment for each other though, rofl.

Tmrw's open house and I'm still not done. Good job, well done. There goes my sleep D:

If only that sentence was true.

2008-10-30T23:22:00.004+08:00

I don't show, doesn't mean that I don't sense anything. I don't say, doesn't mean that I'm not feeling anything. I can be nice, but when you're not, I will not be too.

Do not ever try to test me.

Time, always flies.

2008-10-30T21:43:00.002+08:00

It's still hard for me to believe that next week's my 'O's and I don't really feel settled down until now. That's bad, y'know. What's worse, prerequisite test's like, '-omgnightmare-' kinda thing.

Till then.

Cause, the possibilities.

School day.

2008-10-29T23:37:00.002+08:00

Guys, don't be sad anymore okay. You all sad = me sad. Cheer up, okay?

Totally got owned today. Dumb extension programme, it's making me sleepier and sleepier by the day. Of course, C.O and chalet are driving me crazy. Like, 'WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO.' multitask? Gaagaa. (No typo here) Chem practical 2 tmrw, hope Ms Leow will reduce on her screaming.

True friends, will never ask for anything in return.